Faith, Hope and Humility – April 23, 2013

This is a cute story: there was a password for an Internet filter that was not remembered.  At first she couldn't recall it – so she took a few minutes to think about it and it still would not come. She went into the bathroom and of all places, there she had her epiphany. She came back to the computer and typed in the password and it worked. She was ecstatic about this information, that she was able to pull from far within herself in her still healing brain. It was a good time to rejoice, even if it was something as simple as a password.

The evening was difficult. We visited with Bishop Bennett about our finances and requested help from him to make it. This is the first month in our marriage where we have expected to fall short of what is required for the monthly bills and expenses. We explained to him how the emergency fund had allowed us to not be totally submerged by bills, but that we have reached a point where it is no longer realistic to survive like this.  It was quite humbling to ask for help, and Cassie and I were emotional about it – as I'm sure she feels somewhat responsible and helpless simultaneously. I don't know if I had any expectations as to what the bishop would offer for assistance, but upfront he offered to help with rent and to allow us to utilize the bishop's storehouse. He was anxious and quite willing to offer these services to us, who he identified as a temple-worthy couple.  I don't feel that I'm doing the bare minimum at times as far as what spirituality and righteousness demand. But I know that Cassie and I are at a point in our lives where humility is required and we have to be the ones that are served, perhaps more than we want. Time to redouble my efforts to be close to the Lord and ensure I keep His commandments at all times and be faithful above all.

We have many people to thank, who have spent precious time and money to support us as we go through this trial.  It ranges from the help given by the church, to the immediate family who spend time with Cassie while I work, to friends who have come to be with us, to ward members who have provided meals and loving comfort, and to the many thousands across the nation that pray for us, and the temples wherein our names are mentioned.  The means whereby we subsist on a daily basis lies more in the strength drawn from others than what we can sometimes muster from within.  Cassie and I thank you and know that your efforts are heaven sent.  It is recognized that faith, hope and humility are constant doctrines in life right now.